The quarter-life crisis that turned into a third

So, months and years of failing to find my purpose in life (and thinking a couple of times to have found it), I had the nervous breakdown. I had the moment of total despair. I didn't think it fun so much so I came up with my own ideas of what life should be and how I want to achieve that. Life should be happy. Unfortunately (and fortunately), we are one of the only societies on the planet has this much time to invest in being fulfilled. Honestly, my version is pretty simple (even though it can feel really large); smile and remember that you are only an animal like any other on this big planet of ours. Yep, I said it, you're just like a squirrel. Live a life, go for a walk, enjoy a meal. Life is so much less complicated than we make it. Strive for excellence, yes, but not at the expense of mental health. Without sanity, excellence is a lot harder to achieve anyway.

So, yeah, I'm a genius, I know. Regardless, adopt a smile for the day because your life truly isn't bad. Unless your name is Precious and you've had three of your father's children. Then complain away.

New paleo recipe that I love.

So, I made a recipe on my own that I'm pretty proud of that I wanted to share. Even boyfriend liked it (and he doesn't like much).

Lindsey's Super-Delicious Paleo Meatball Soup

Meatballs:
1 total pound of both ground pork and ground beef (I bought stuff on the cheap so I had to mix my own)
1/2 a white onion, chopped very fine or grated into the meat mixture
1 egg
1 tablespoon fresh chopped (or grated) garlic
1/2 cup fresh chopped flat leaf parsley
*1/3 cup grated parmesan cheese (not paleo so the*)

Soup
1/3 pound pancetta cut into lardons (thin strips)
2 large shallots, diced
1 cup sliced button mushrooms
1 qt beef stock
1 qt chicken stock
2 cups fresh chopped kale

Preheat the oven to 350.

Mix the meatball mixture until everything is sufficiently combined and not longer. Roll meatballs in hands at about 1 inch size (or use a melon baller - cheater). Place on foil-lined cookie sheet and bake 20 or so minutes (depends on how big the balls - ha ha, balls).

While the meatballs are cooking, place a soup pot on medium and heat up. Once you can feel the heat four inches or so off the surface of the pan, render the fat from the pancetta keeping it from burning yet still rendering. Once the fat from the pancetta is rendered and the meaty portion is cooked, add the shallots. Cook until translucent. Add the broth. Bring up to a boil and add the mushrooms. Adding the mushrooms now adds this earthy quality to the soup.

Add the meatballs to the soup. Let them simmer about a half hour and add kale. Eat. Delicious.